So... last night, for the 2nd time, I had a dream about God Hand... and I'm not talking about some cool Berserk dream where Guts was kicking ass... but both times I had a NIGHTMARE about God Hand and the Apostles (with no Guts around to help) and it was vividly horrifying.
The 1st time I was one of the ones being sacrificed and literally, there were people all around me being torn apart by Apostles. The ground and the walls were also just a bunch of faces/heads, as they were in the Eclipse. I was basically running away the entire dream, trying not to get eaten or slaughtered... and it was fu*king crazy. I don't know how to describe it to make it sound as terrible as it was, but just try to keep in mind, these weren't animated looking drawings of monsters or people... but they were like real monsters as if you were to see them in reality.
Last night, however, the dream was a bit different. This time, I was the one that summoned God Hand and its followers, and it was 10 times as freaky. After the behelit opened its face, I could hear these voices and this force wrapped around my body so I could barely breathe/move. During this time, I started to feel immense guilt because everyone around me were my friends and family. And then when I told all of them to run and hide, some sort of weird hellish chanting began and the wall/ground of faces appeared.
The suspense of waiting for the God Hand and the Apostles to appear was incredible. I thought I was going to hyperventilate and die because I REALLY WAS SCARED. I also started having flashbacks of the 1st dream I had and all those images/sounds popped into my head of people screaming and crying and I really didn't want to go through it again...
When God Hand arrived as well as the Apostles, I saw my friends and family being killed/raped... and it was the most traumatic thing ever... Everything felt and looked so real and the sheer presence of such higher demonic beings really took force over my body. The entire time I was shivering and I couldn't do a thing.
Anyways... I just thought I'd share and to see if anyone else had similar experiences. I'm not a freak or anything, haha. And I don't have any pent up rage against my friends and family. I do tend to have pretty vivid and wild dreams, but these God Hand dreams were quite disturbing. I am, however, an obssessed and die-hard Berserk fan... I guess maybe too much for my own good...
The dreams, though, somewhat changed my outlook on Berserk, because whenever I read Berserk, and whenever I see all those gruesome images of torture and rape, I stop and think about it for a while, and I let the visions sink in... and yeah, it's heavy stuff, and it gets to me... but I've never really tried picturing it as if I were living in the Berserk world... and if I was just a poor villager with no real power or skill with the sword.
It really is a horrific thing.
The 1st time I was one of the ones being sacrificed and literally, there were people all around me being torn apart by Apostles. The ground and the walls were also just a bunch of faces/heads, as they were in the Eclipse. I was basically running away the entire dream, trying not to get eaten or slaughtered... and it was fu*king crazy. I don't know how to describe it to make it sound as terrible as it was, but just try to keep in mind, these weren't animated looking drawings of monsters or people... but they were like real monsters as if you were to see them in reality.
Last night, however, the dream was a bit different. This time, I was the one that summoned God Hand and its followers, and it was 10 times as freaky. After the behelit opened its face, I could hear these voices and this force wrapped around my body so I could barely breathe/move. During this time, I started to feel immense guilt because everyone around me were my friends and family. And then when I told all of them to run and hide, some sort of weird hellish chanting began and the wall/ground of faces appeared.
The suspense of waiting for the God Hand and the Apostles to appear was incredible. I thought I was going to hyperventilate and die because I REALLY WAS SCARED. I also started having flashbacks of the 1st dream I had and all those images/sounds popped into my head of people screaming and crying and I really didn't want to go through it again...
When God Hand arrived as well as the Apostles, I saw my friends and family being killed/raped... and it was the most traumatic thing ever... Everything felt and looked so real and the sheer presence of such higher demonic beings really took force over my body. The entire time I was shivering and I couldn't do a thing.
Anyways... I just thought I'd share and to see if anyone else had similar experiences. I'm not a freak or anything, haha. And I don't have any pent up rage against my friends and family. I do tend to have pretty vivid and wild dreams, but these God Hand dreams were quite disturbing. I am, however, an obssessed and die-hard Berserk fan... I guess maybe too much for my own good...
The dreams, though, somewhat changed my outlook on Berserk, because whenever I read Berserk, and whenever I see all those gruesome images of torture and rape, I stop and think about it for a while, and I let the visions sink in... and yeah, it's heavy stuff, and it gets to me... but I've never really tried picturing it as if I were living in the Berserk world... and if I was just a poor villager with no real power or skill with the sword.
It really is a horrific thing.