Oburi
All praise Grail
Post your addictions. It can be anything. From the comical to the serious.
For me it's more serious and the reason I feel i can comfortably talk about it now is because it's all in the past. As most probably don't know I struggled with serious opiate addiction from 2006 to July of 2011. I can now happily say that for almost six months now I've been clean as a whistle and I'll never go back. But for over five years that wasn't the case. It started off with taking some vicoden or oxycontin for fun once in a while. Before long it was every day. In the last 3 years before I managed to quit it was a daily routine of crushing up 80mg oxy and snorting it with 2 mgs xanax every morning and again later if I could afford it. I was spending at least $60 a day most of the week. I figured I spent well over 10 grand in my last few years.
I know this is graphic but talking about it helps and i really don't have many people to openly talk to about it other than close friends and family, but sometimes they aren't always available. Anyway, the reason I decided to quit (which seemed completely out of the question for years) was because several bad things happened to people I know. A fiend and co-worker was fired for it, a person who I dealt with died of an accidental overdose and a good friend of mine was arrested and sent to prison. All these terrible things happened quickly to people around me and keep in mind I'm a very nerdy, very white kid from the suburbs of New England. I haven't had a very hard life, so stuff like this is pretty intense for me. So i finally decided to quit and with a lot of moral and emotional support I stocked up on vitamins, medicines and supplements to help with withdrawal. Since July I haven't touched the stuff. In fact I haven't smoked or even drank (except a glass of champagne or wine) since. It's all a thing of the past as far as I'm concerned. Living a pill free life is so strange since it was something that I had lived with daily for almost 6 years.
Quitting wasn't easy but what was harder was actually getting the motivation and determination to want to quit in the first place. Even now that I'm free though, I still get intense cravings at least once or twice a week. I've been told it might never go away. I still take suboxin which is something like a fake opiate that blocks the receptors in the brain so that even if I gave in and used again it would be ineffective. It's not as dangerous but it's still something I'd like to not have to take twice a week (plus it tastes gross. You have to keep it under your tongue to dissolve). But like I said talking helps and if anyone else ever has or is going through something like this please be comfortable asking questions or discussing. I'm pretty much an expert on the subject.
This is a different topic than usual on these boards and if the admins feel it's inappropriate I understand. I just really felt like talking about it. But like I said share any of your addictions of any sort.
For me it's more serious and the reason I feel i can comfortably talk about it now is because it's all in the past. As most probably don't know I struggled with serious opiate addiction from 2006 to July of 2011. I can now happily say that for almost six months now I've been clean as a whistle and I'll never go back. But for over five years that wasn't the case. It started off with taking some vicoden or oxycontin for fun once in a while. Before long it was every day. In the last 3 years before I managed to quit it was a daily routine of crushing up 80mg oxy and snorting it with 2 mgs xanax every morning and again later if I could afford it. I was spending at least $60 a day most of the week. I figured I spent well over 10 grand in my last few years.
I know this is graphic but talking about it helps and i really don't have many people to openly talk to about it other than close friends and family, but sometimes they aren't always available. Anyway, the reason I decided to quit (which seemed completely out of the question for years) was because several bad things happened to people I know. A fiend and co-worker was fired for it, a person who I dealt with died of an accidental overdose and a good friend of mine was arrested and sent to prison. All these terrible things happened quickly to people around me and keep in mind I'm a very nerdy, very white kid from the suburbs of New England. I haven't had a very hard life, so stuff like this is pretty intense for me. So i finally decided to quit and with a lot of moral and emotional support I stocked up on vitamins, medicines and supplements to help with withdrawal. Since July I haven't touched the stuff. In fact I haven't smoked or even drank (except a glass of champagne or wine) since. It's all a thing of the past as far as I'm concerned. Living a pill free life is so strange since it was something that I had lived with daily for almost 6 years.
Quitting wasn't easy but what was harder was actually getting the motivation and determination to want to quit in the first place. Even now that I'm free though, I still get intense cravings at least once or twice a week. I've been told it might never go away. I still take suboxin which is something like a fake opiate that blocks the receptors in the brain so that even if I gave in and used again it would be ineffective. It's not as dangerous but it's still something I'd like to not have to take twice a week (plus it tastes gross. You have to keep it under your tongue to dissolve). But like I said talking helps and if anyone else ever has or is going through something like this please be comfortable asking questions or discussing. I'm pretty much an expert on the subject.
This is a different topic than usual on these boards and if the admins feel it's inappropriate I understand. I just really felt like talking about it. But like I said share any of your addictions of any sort.