Have you ever had a sleep paralysis?
I often get it when I lay down on the bed during daytime and try to sleep, then I get stuck in this almost vegetable state of being aware of my presence and fully woke but unable to move very much, can't snap out of it, and when I do snap out of it the tiredness puts me back into that state unless I quickly wake up for real
Today it happened to me once again and it was truly terrifying, a thought occurred to me: what if I turn into this paralyzed being, is this what disabled people feel like? Suddenly I had an intense desire to tell my closest my final words. I was petrified, even now as I write this I feel like not caring as much for irrelevant things but to live my life more fully.
Usually Sleep Paralysis would invoke fear in me, fear of unknown, fear of something attacking me whilst being in this state but this time it was different, I wonder why.
A lot of disabled folks have it where their brain is not sending the signals to their nerves, or they had a stroke which caused these Cerebral issues. To think it could happen to any of us at any given point is truly saddening, I wish life was not this cruel.
I often get it when I lay down on the bed during daytime and try to sleep, then I get stuck in this almost vegetable state of being aware of my presence and fully woke but unable to move very much, can't snap out of it, and when I do snap out of it the tiredness puts me back into that state unless I quickly wake up for real
Today it happened to me once again and it was truly terrifying, a thought occurred to me: what if I turn into this paralyzed being, is this what disabled people feel like? Suddenly I had an intense desire to tell my closest my final words. I was petrified, even now as I write this I feel like not caring as much for irrelevant things but to live my life more fully.
Usually Sleep Paralysis would invoke fear in me, fear of unknown, fear of something attacking me whilst being in this state but this time it was different, I wonder why.
A lot of disabled folks have it where their brain is not sending the signals to their nerves, or they had a stroke which caused these Cerebral issues. To think it could happen to any of us at any given point is truly saddening, I wish life was not this cruel.